The Christmas Miracle
The invitation daily is to trust in God, in His Love, His keeping, His faithfulness, soothing grace, His acceptance of Me…..the I AM whose I am,…enough for Him ALWAYS His mercy, forgiveness…..Be-loved as Beloved, clinging to the seal upon my heart…His seal, and mine upon His…. The gift of Jesus in the Eucharist…the Joy, Thanksgiving, Grace, Presence, Peace, His love letters…….nestled in His loving arms as He soothes His wee one……
I lean into Jesus, MY ONE LOVE JESUS, GRACE AND SAVIOR…..into the arms of the little baby….just arriving Christmas Eve night….my birthday, YOUR BIRTHDAY. After endless weeks of heart wrenching longing You came….,only to find vile words being spewed forth onto me once again, as my Gentle girl shudders convulsively.
I reach out….lunging at Broken soul, who is on the attack again, and plead for him to listen to healing words, and let Baby Jesus heal him………
My one love always and forever soothes, as I sooth Gentle Girl , encouraging her to nourish her trembling body, as she prepares to nourish……her Faith……Baby Faith……..our hope for healing?
Calmed…they leave………and once again I am left with the lance ripping lies, bleeding this heart….on my birthday, on Jesus’ Birthday……All is calm, All is Bright?????? Silent Night?
I gaze at the brilliance of the Christmas tree, as I bend low to embrace my ONE LOVE JESUS, GRACE AND SAVIOR……as a Babe, lying in the wooden cradle I set out for Him only hours before…..
Tears spill upon Him, as I place the Cross made of thorn-filled rose stems across His tiny Body…and a red rose blessed from a friend.
It was not suppose to be like this…………..perhaps Mary said the same thing so long ago……
Yet Mary said YES to I AM…..without hesitation and without self-pity.
I drifted off to sleep, close to the Cradle…..and awoke to Christmas Morning………
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
He was in the beginning with God.
All things came to be through Him, and without Him nothing came to be.
What came to be through Him was life, and this life was the Light of the human race;
The Light shines in the darkness,
And the darkness has NOT overcome it” (John 1 verses 1-5)
It is Christmas morning and I believe in the Miracle of my ONE LOVE JESUS, GRACE AND SAVIOR……
Holding the Cross of Jesus against my heart, and bending low to kiss the face of the Christ-Child, I say with Mary…
YES
You have forgiven me MY ONE LOVE JESUS, GRACE AND SAVIOR…..as countless times as there are stars in the sky…and, by YOUR GRACE, I freely choose to follow the STAR to your HEART.
I receive YOU into my heart at Christmas Mass MY ONE LOVE JESUS, GRACE AND SAVIOR…..AND YOU FILL ME WITH YOUR LOVE AND HEALING………AND GRACE
Hours later, when I see Broken Soul, I kiss him and smile, saying Merry Christmas!
Gentle Girl is free from pain…the Christmas miracle I prayed for so earnestly was granted and embraced.
With smiles and Joy, Gentle Girl…extends her arms to me….
And offers me ………A GIFT…..
Baby Faith……….to hold and kiss…..to bless, and be filled with
Faith……….and Hope…..and Love…..and Christmas miracles………and being
More than enough in the HEART OF MY ONE LOVE JESUS, GRACE, AND SAVIOR.
“And the Word became flesh, and made His dwelling among us,
And we saw His glory,
The glory as of the Father’s only Son,
Full of GRACE AND TRUTH” (John 1:14)
That Christmas night, I knew that I had seen the Father’s Glory…the I AM…whose I am…
Enough for Him always.
I bend low and hold the Christ-Child to my heart…..ALWAYS AND FOREVER…the wee one